Sad but Happy

I am sad

• That I didn't spend enough time with my Grandpa before he died but happy that I had him in my life and experienced that kind of love. Two years and I still miss calling him and talking to him.....I can still remember that last hug.  
• That my daughter is ending her freshman year in High school, but happy that I was blessed with such a sweet, smart, responsible, caring daughter. All I can think about as I am attending all of her end of the year sporting events, band event, choral concerts....three more years.  That's it.  I cried last night following her concert when they acknowleged the seniors with awards. What will I be like when that is her standing up there?  I will be sobbing.  I looked around last night and didn't see anyone sobbing.  
• That my first grader is going to be a second grader (why can't I just keep him at this age, it's so great?!) but happy that he has turned into a very sensitive, caring, school loving kid and still adores his mom. He walked to school today!! And me being the overprotective mama, drove over to the school and made sure he got there safely!! :) 
• That getting healthy and getting the weight off is so darn hard but happy that I am sticking to the plan even though some days I fall off the running or the eating healthy bandwagon,  I hop back on the next day...or the next. *wink* *smile*